i never desired friendship because i literally can't think of a single time that being around another person felt good in any way, rather than stressful, or at best neutral. even online friends are a pain in the ass, it just made me go invisible on steam cuz i don't want niggers inviting me to play shit or bothering with their life drama.
literally the only time i felt any kind of positive feelings towards a person was when i created my tulpa.
it felt incredible to "discover" these feelings in adulthood, but it also made me feel sad because that's what normalniggers feel on a daily basis when they hang out with their buddies and girlfriends. no wonder friendship felt like a chore when the key affective component was missing. shit was rigged from the start, i'm a born schizoid.
#4396
1 week ago
Same, I feel guilty because I had a good friend that I more or less kinda "ghosted" or ignored for a long time, I mean I think he understands the way I am and that I'm not ghosting him and it's not exclusively personal but yeah I just can't idk if I'm schizoid because I still seek interaction especially here on the soup, and I live with my brother and mother and talk to them (though I don't seek to do stuff with them I just talk to them as they are there) but I heard schizoid doesn't necesssrily mean you totally eschew social relations
>>4400
I guess where I differ from the symptoms is that I think I do care about the praise and criticism of others
I guess where I differ from the symptoms is that I think I do care about the praise and criticism of others
>>4400
>>4402
there's this overt/covert distinction in characteristics that i relate to a lot. it's not that you don't care about praise/criticism, but it /appears/ on the outside that you don't care about praise/criticism. a lot of schizoids are highly emotional and sensitive on the inside, but their overt features are cold and stoic.
>>4402
there's this overt/covert distinction in characteristics that i relate to a lot. it's not that you don't care about praise/criticism, but it /appears/ on the outside that you don't care about praise/criticism. a lot of schizoids are highly emotional and sensitive on the inside, but their overt features are cold and stoic.