i didnt do much worth discussing lad, im a boring person. i hardened the site against spam and mana gaming, forced myself to do some cardio, played some more destiny 2, and binge watched anime. my mental health has improved a lot lately but the thing ive never managed to achieve is a durable, long-term healthy state. so very soon i expect ill stop sleeping, get depressed, and i wont be able to keep my room clean any more.

i remain hopeful though... my life is mostly just ground hog day. its me trying to find a way to cure what is probably a permanent problem.

^ all good, I could have all the feels in the world and it wouldn't be enough. I wonder if there is anything specific triggering it for you

^^ idk, i've never had "depression" without the accompanying thoughts and feelings, so it was never a mystery to my why i was depressed. sounds like you're fine when you're distracted, but eventually you know that "problem" you have isn't fixed and maybe can't be fixed which naturally leads to resignation.

^ i end up having periods where i have no energy, cant think, cant organise myself, cant manage to put anything away or take care of trash, cant take control of my life, and periods where some things improve. ive tried for a long time to control for different variables. maybe look for causes, fix them, and i could have a more stable life, but nothing has worked so far... it still doesnt stop me from forgetting the past and being hopeful (maybe too hopeful) every time theres a stretch of stability though. i think a lot of people would have given up but i feel like its still possible.

maybe quit being a libtard and your depression will go away

^ does sucking off donald trump cure everything?

^ ok, so which fascist cock do you prefer to suck?